So I guess I'm in Army

The problem with doing things because you believe in them and not because they're what you want to do is that you don't really want to do them. While that might seem to be an obvious statement- it took me some thought to really come to grips with it. Ultimately- I believe that anyone can like anything- not necessarily anything but among those things which people enjoy. So while I make fun of people who... well, pretty much anyone who isn't my friend. I can nevertheless understand how extenuating circumstances could influence you to subscribe to... buck hunter or something like that. It just takes a little more work for certain people to like some things whereas other things come naturally. These things come naturally to me:

• Musick of the Ugly People variety, see also 'indie'
• Skiing
• Mountain Biking
• Dogs
• Climbing
• Camping in the summertime
• Movies, see also 'Cristopher Nolan'
• Girls
• Chacos
• Mohawks
• Utah
• Electronic musick
• iPods, see also 'greatest invention of modern times
• Good books, see also 'easy to read not necessarily good'
• sleeping
• Concerts
• Backpacking ON TRAILS and IN THE MOUNTAINS

Not so easy for me to like are the following:

• Army life
• Georgia
• Camping in the winter
• Waking up early in the morning to backpack 2.5 miles one way and turn around and backpack back to where you started. On the road.
• Killing
• Country musick
• Running
• Anything involving Realtree
• UFC
• Marching around and singing songs

I'm not sure where I was going with this list thing. I just like making lists. What I'm really trying to get at is that there is a set of things which are both easy for me to like and I also feel are acceptable- I don't make fun of people who like those things. Whereas there are other things that I like that I honestly make fun of other people for liking. Moral of the story is, I suppose, that Georgia is not Utah. By any stretch of the imagination. Further, Fort Benning is unique. Army is unique. And while I hope that my core(which I wouldn't make fun of) stays pure and true you can't avoid changing and adapting to your surroundings. It is inevitable. I am a different person than I was in April when I left my friends and family to live my beliefs. I haven't figured out what all this pursuit will require of me. At the very least, 3 years. I haven't yet determined whether my beliefs support turning this into a career or not. If I had my druthers, I'd be done and back to skiing, and biking all the time in three years. But, if I had my druthers, I'd be back in Utah now. So. Yeah. Sorry that this is so rambly and wierd, I just felt like I should write something about the philosophical dilemmas slash self introspection I've been experiencing. So anyways. Hopefully I'll post more. I just hate my computer situation right now and that means that I don't like sitting in front of it. So anyways. Hope this isn't too wordy. No pictures of Army due to the aforementioned computer situation.