_________(Blank) : August 2005

Weekend

Interesting weekend. Highlight of the weekend? Not really sure. Getting home at 3.33 on Friday night was definitely interesting. As are John and Gard's reaction to my date. What was their reaction? 'Never talk to her again'. This might be because she's got way different values than normal. But honestly? I talked more about the gospel with her than I've talked about it with anyone since I've been off of my mission. And it was all her wanting to talk about it- not me being all like 'you're messed up so let's talk about the gospel'. And as messed up as she might seem- she does have the foundation of the Gospel and a strong testimony and the fact that she's done the things she's done and gone through the things she's gone through have made her more sure of her testimony and I can't imagine where she'd be without it. For that matter- I can't imagine where I'd be.

Another highlight? Or just interesting tidbit? Now I have both Gard AND the Ropers making me want snow and it's hard to take because it's bad enough that I can't listen to Fall Out Boy because it makes me tronki for snow. But it's all good because ski season is going to be killer. Truly it is. And we are going to do a snowdance and I am going to finish my altar to the 'snowgods'. True story.

Pensive

I've had a pensive day. It was a long day as I worked like ten hours or so. I started working at 4.30 this morning. That was after I went to sleep last night at 3.00. Then I came home and slept for a couple hours and Theoretically I was going to clean my room cause it quickly deteriorated after my Sunday night camping trip. But that didn't happen although right now I'm going to clean it. It should take all of a few minutes. Ok- now it's clean again and I feel better. When my room is dirty it really affects the way I feel.

Today I decided that I really like magazines. Well mostly I only like certain magazines. I really like doctor's offices that have cool magazines. It makes me happy. Unfortunately most magazines in doctors' offices are totally uninteresting and usually extremely outdated. My eye doctor's office being the notable exception to that rule. There was always an issue of Ski magazine there. It made me happy. True story. Another thing that makes me happy is that on Saturday when I surprised someone with a visit they said 'most definitely' to someone else. Why did this make me happy? That's for me to know and make a cliched statement using the words 'and you to find out'.

My legs

Here's a pic of my camping trip. It's not a very good pic but I was really excited about it until I got it onto my computer and realized that it was kind of a crappy shot. I went to the same spot I went last time. Only this time I guess I must have gone faster or something or not eaten as much because I was seriously exhausted when I got back. It was a good experience though. I was truly alone with my thoughts for a while. Not that I got much quality thinking done. I guess I figured out my fall plans though so that's a start. As far as other serious matters? I'm still lost. There's the way I want things to be and there's the way things are. And I can see what needs to change for things to be the way I want them to be but I don't know what to do to change them. And maybe that change isn't ever going to happen and it is hurting to realize that.

I'm a Law man! I'm in the totem pole!

Dog the Bounty Hunter is dang freaking hilarious. True story. I can't believe that he actually exists. Poor guy- I don't think he realizes that the whole purpose of his show is so that people will make fun of his outrageous mullet and random 'biker' style. And the fact that he has twelve children. And the fact that 'and the fact that...' should never be used.

Whistles go WOo WOo in Utah!

I went camping last night. Truly. I borrowed John's tent with the intent to use just the fly cause I thought it was going to rain. But it didn't rain so I just used the rest of the tent without the fly. It's a pretty cool tent- it's all mesh so you can see everything. Anyways- it's a good thing I used the tent because I was getting eaten alive while I set it up. That's a new concept to me. The whole mosquitoes in Utah thing. For some reason I just don't deal with them that often here. No to say I've never dealt with them in my life but in Utah not so much. BTW- Utah is neat. True story. I was at Wild Oats buying granola and I decided to get the latest issue of Outside. I got it because the cover story was about the coolest places to live in the US and I thought that SLC must be on there. So I opened it up and indeed- SLC was the first place on the list. Don't believe me? I'll scan it in and post it. And then on Sunday I realized that the picture of a mountain biker included with the article was taken on Bobsled trail- the very same toaster pastry, I mean trail, that I mountainbiked the day I bought the magazine. Moral of the story? Utah - and more particularly Salt Lake - is awesome.

Sights and Sounds
	Insightful? I wonder. It depends on my mindset when I watch it.		A little heavy at times but still a quality CD

More movies

I did it again. I was watching TV last night and clicked over to this movie and Arnold Schwarzenegger was running around in a yellow spandex suit in a ruined city style set. Within approximately fifteen seconds I knew I was watching 'Running Man' made in 1987. I had never seen this movie before and yet with just the actor and the scenery I knew which movie it was. I guess I really am a movie buff through and through. Maybe I should swear off movies. Cancel my membership at Hollywood video and devote my attentions to more important matters like.....music? Or something actually important? Probably wouldn't be a bad idea.

Movies

I was just watching TV and a movie came on. The screen was black and then there was the sound of pickaxes hitting stone. I instantly knew it was 'O Brother, Where Art Thou?'. I didn't even need to see anything to know what movie I was watching and I've only seen that movie like once or twice. Why don't I have this sort of memory when it comes to things that matter? That would be nice indeed.

Song of the Moment

Life Less Ordinary, Carbon Leaf
Live a life less ordinary Live a life extraordinary with me Live a life less sedentary Live a life evolutionary with me Well I hate to be a bother, But it's you and there's no other, I do believe You can call me naive but... I know me very well (at least as far as I can tell) And I know what I need The night you came into my life Well it took the bones of me, took the bones of me You blew away my storm and strife And shook the bones of me, shook the bones of me By the way, I do know why you stayed away... I will keep tongue-tied next time

Sometimes I worry about posting songs that coincide with my feelings. I wonder what people will think of my blatant lack of creativity in using other people's words to communicate my feelings. But frankly- that's my big problem; I care way too much what people think of what I'm doing. A lot of times it's ok but it becomes crippling. I have decided that it is important to make a distinction between what people do and who they are. I have made mistakes in the past and I hope that my friends understand this and don't hold them against me. I want to be known for my hits not just my misses.